Break time...

This break has been absolutely fantastic in every area of life except for one, and unfortunately it's the one that matters most.  I always seem to put my relationship with Jesus on the back burner when I come home. Why? I have no idea, it could be one of many things.
 It is so weird how Satan knows your weakest points and whenever you give him a chance to attack that spot he will, and he will do it in the best way possible.  I feel like coming home might be one of my weak points just because when I'm home it feels like its not only a break from school but its a break where I don't have to be in communication with the Lord.  Seeing this weakness over the last week has been really hard to deal with now that I look at it, and it is not going to be easy to fix.  I know with Christ however, all things are possible!  I find it amazing how we as humans are always focused on non-heavenly things and we turn our backs on Christ daily, yet he still accepts us right where we left and wants to grow with us.  It really blows my mind how convicted you can get when you pray for conviction and ask the Lord to show you the weakest points in your life.  It honestly sucks to be convicted because that feeling in your heart of betrayal and turning on Jesus is awful.  On the other hand, the feeling of repentance and knowing that we are washed clean is hands down one of the most comforting things anyone can feel! 
I have really learned lately that as followers of Christ it's important to think of Jesus not only as our healer and our redeemer, but also as the person that allows everything to happen. He puts us through all these tough situations in our lives for the sole purpose of making us stronger.  If we are able to focus on Christ during our weakest points, we can break those bad habits and become stronger in our relationships with Jesus! 

We have to know that we will fail but we are restored by the grace and the love of Christ alone. 

^"7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. ⁸ Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. ⁹ Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. ¹⁰ Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up." James 4:7-10